Sunday, January 03, 2010

New Year..New Attitude

Yes it has been over a year since I last posted...and what a year that was. It saw a lot of changes for the Zoo family here. There are a lot of things I am just wanting to put behind us...and still some changes we want to make. Hopefully 2010 will see us turning a corner here.

The Zoo family spent the first few days of this year at one of our favourite places to camp. I got to spend a lot of time taking photos, reading, messing with a little art and doing a lot of thinking about what my "word" for this year would be.

For the last few years I have take Ali Edwards lead and chosen a word to be my mantra for the year. After much contemplating I have chosen the word ACCEPTANCE.

I suffer depression....and sometimes it spirals and is ugly. For 2010, I am going to face this head on and move right through everything. Given the pain and turmoil I experience at time, I need to accept that I am not the person I used to be. I need to accept that somethings are beyond my control. I need to accept that people don't know how I am feeling unless I tell them. I need to accept that I am doing the best I can with my children and my marriage. I need to accept compliments graciously. I need to accept me for who I am at this point in my life.

I know that acceptance does not necessarily mean instant happiness. But I will do my best to move forward positively and with hope.